my world

a lil place called arvor cove

last night i spent my verry first night in my home. after the moving boxes around seting up my bed and goodbyes to the super awsome friend that heleped me move. i opened my window  i lay down on my bed and looked at the beatifull night sky. listened to the sound of famillies playing in the pool some highschool boys playing basketball and midleschool girls gossiping on.. i know it doesnt sound so atractive but somehow last night as i was taking it all in it sounded like music to me. the music of a new comunity the music of arvor cove. my so called new home..

the start of a brand new chapter in the adventures of me.!!!

happy 20

so today is my bday woow. this has been a day full of emotions ..   i am officially out of my parents house and out in this world aloneee.. crazy.. im spending my b day in the local BK with josh and the rest of my co workers they brought us cake and sang. i know its not a lot but for me it ment the world..   . just waiting for night to come and head home … my home finally.  i cant belive it this is a day that im going to remmber for ever. and i know i should b happy and cheerfull and hyper  but somehow theres something in me that just doesnt feel right i thought that thiss will make me fell better but somehow is still have this hole in me…… wondering when its going to end.   today a day full emotions and its going to end the same way. tonight im going to make my way home with a rose a crown for bk and a heart full of dreams.

happy b day to me!!!!

the new adventures of me

ok so since my last post again lots of things have changed . i am no longer to moving to new york city ( for now) , next moth i start culinary school im supper exited  just took the next step towars my acting career.. yeah sounds weard but its a plan go to culinaryschool get a real job as a cheff then move to new york. so pray to all the gods guys for this plan to work lol.  ok so short term plans ill b moving out of the rentals to my own place FINALLY. looking for 2 awsome roomates and well yeah. i have a new job since i lost my super awsome one at jcps do to the move to nyc. (that never happened thanks alex. ) lolz hmmm well just like always life has ups and downs and  mine is a bumpy road but im still getting up and running towards my dreams.  cant wait to star my new life  and start writing “THE NEW ADVENTURES OF ME” 

PS VISIT ME ON YOUTUBE http://www.youtube.com/user/prinsessdaliaa?feature=mhum

24

definetly the most ramdom christmass eve  ever.. i spent my verry first christmas in the vally  working in the morning like always and coming home to an empty house . with a half way lit christmass tree. and a mouse staring at me from under the kitchen table..definetly sounds super depresive. but my night brightened up with a visit. still trying to figure out the events of lastnight. all i know for now is that it was amazing even if i was away from my familly and  woke up with a killer headache i know for sure it was woth it .. and if all hangovers felt like i felt this morning i would definetly party on every night..i kjnow for a fact that all the drinking last night happened for a reason not only to have fun next to an amazing singer but to try and forget of the fact that my whole familly was hours away celebrating.(without me). but eather way waking up like this even if it was scarry and weird made this a christmass that ill never forget..

still wishing for something that seems so far away…

MERRY CHRISTMASSS

life change

ok so since my last post a lot has happened my life has definetly given a 360. or 380 idk. lol the point is that has changed complitly. for example i am no longe engaged. my so called prince charming turned out to be the evil wizard who trys non stop to kill the preatty princess. literally he hurt me in ways i can not say. and now thanks to him i had to change my style of living . well it not that bad in the process i met and re united with really cool people. like alex and the 2 army strangers from the buss to san antonio. and when i reached my destination i met with frank the awsomest dude i have ever felt something for. i miss him cuz his miles away but his coming back this wensday.(cant wait to see him) lol i also re united with noe who i will thank him for ever for helping me out of another possible depression and not letting me fall and for the awsome self defence i naw know and for the 2 am breakfast at dennys. lol  it seems like after the break up my life has gotten better.. im still scared to death and sometimes paranoid of going out in the dark but only time can heal that. i know i will be ok. now im here stronger than ever not letting anybody step over me. hopefully moving up at work and waiting on the summer to finally move to new york and get my career officially started.since that day i know i have fallen so many times but ive learned to get up and keep on running. i learned to love life and to not take the litle things for granted. now i leave my life day by day learning from my mistakes and only getting stronger as i go.  i seriouslly dont know what i would do without the people who have been here listening to me in the process of finding my self. i thank you guys so much and some day when im up on that stage getting my first emmy or oscar i will thank each and evry one of you.

THANK YOU FOR BEING PART OF MY NEW LIFE!!!

divided by 2

aa going crazy definetly have no idea what to do.

naval dreams -1st essay for my AMDA aplication

your doing What? and No your not. was the first words i heard when i told my friends that i was enlisting in the u.s military (the navy to be exact). crazy i know specially for someone like me. i was girly, completly devoted to god and all things pink,and ofcourse had never set foot in a gym. i had my reasons and dream to follow and there wasnt anything that could get in my way. it was all really hard and it ended to fast.

It was a typical day in my not so normal senior year. with one exeption the night before my mother had told me she was going to leave my step dad. and all i heard was “im giving up the only thing we have to support the familly and im counting on you to help me”. i was so worried i knew this decition was going to make things some what better for us but with two one year old boys i knew it wasnt going to be essay. i went bed and like everynight i prayed but this time i asked for one more thing “daddy please tell me what to do”. that morning i went to school not knowing what was going to happen. got there said hi to everybody acted like my happy self and went to my economics class. i walked in and my day brightened up a lil bit we wherent going to have class today. instead we where going to listen to a presentation from the navy recruiting officers that where there. i remeber they looked really cool with their uniforms and supeer shinny shoes. lol and i pictured my brother and wondered if he looked just as good as they did. i decided to pay attention to them may be i could find out more about what my brother did. as the pesentation went on i realiced that the navy wasnt that bad and maybe i could pool it off. i felt like if my prayers where answered. when the presentation ended i aproched onen of the officers and asked him for more info his name was petty officer trevino. i will never forget the feeling i got when i told him “im interested but im not sure if i can do it since i want to be an actris”, i felt hope. he wrote down my info and i left. i dint hear from him till 2 months after and it was by coincidence that i ran into him. i was droping off my act apllication when he looked at me and asked “whats your name?” he said hed been looking for me. he explained everuything and i called my mom and told her i wanted to enlist (i was 17 so i needed her aproval).and thats where it all began.

i took the test signed the papers then told my friends and most familly. most of them didnt take it well. speacially my familly, they hated the idea but they suported me on it. i hated seeing them not happy about it. i kept on wodering how the only person i hadnt told was going to take it. that person was my brother lalo. he was the only icared about accepting by decition. i was so worried but i got brave and finally told him and when i did it wasnt so pretty. he got mad and i hated that. i felt like he hated me. but i still went on with it. this was the one thing i wasnt going to give up so easy. because being in the navy ment a better life and a greater oportunity of doing what i really love acting. the navy was going to give me the money to go to school and be an actris. when i told my friends that was something else most of them where mad. but there was one exeption my best friend bob(anthony), who had already signed out of the navy when i came jumping super happy telling him that i had joined and that we where going to be together. at the time i didnt know he wasnt in. then he signed back in and that was supper cool we worked out together and “studied”. i loved spendind my afternoos with him. we always had tons of fun until his time to leave came and i was super sad. i missed so much i kind of got depressed. and always let him super long messeges on his profile. i just hated being away from him.the 3 weeks later my recruiter told me he was going to come back. i cried still dont know if it was because i was happy or because i was sad for him.i couldnt wait till he came back. and once he did i wanted to see him but i had to wait because he was sick and couldnt go out. and when i finally saw him we sat for hours at the local starbucks just talking and being us. after that and a series of un happy events i lost contact with him. and wish we could go back to those days when we where un separable.

march 23,2010, that was my shiping date.a year had passed from my first interview with petty officer trevino. a year full of happy and painfull memories. where i met petty officers camacho, garza, and garcia. and my friends from the navy recruiting station weslaco(now alamo) j.c, heri,alma,debby, cano and concha .march 23rd also marked the beggining of my new life. i remeber it like if it was yesturday that day was the sadest and happyest day of that whole year, i had my friends alma and debby there with me. and ofcource my 2 recruiters. it was time for me to go, i cried my whole way to san atonio. when i got there i calmed my self down with the help of some army guy who was there with me. and went up to my room.i waited for my aunt and uncle to get there (who are like my parents)i was so happy i was going to get to see them before i had to go they took me out to eat in the river walk then droped me off at the hotel. i wanted to cry so bad but didnt. i went up to my room and tryed to sleep i knew the next morning i was going to be on a plane on my way to great lakes. it all went by so fast for me i dont remember much. i do remeber thats where seaman recruit wilhem ( tara for me) she was one of my rtc best friends. when we got there i was so scared im pretty sure she was two they putt us in to lines and separated us from the males thats when we got to make our frst 2 min phone call. after that the put us in this room then we got separated from everybody else into this other room where the other people from our division where at and met our second rdc (recruit division commander)petty oficer 1stclass hosteler. we got our uniforms and stayed awake for 48 hrs. then we got to go to our ship. and met our third rdcpettyoffcer cambell. they where both really strict but i could feel that outside in the real world they where really nice people. thats also when i met seaman recruit spencer(megan)she was tiny and cute she had preatty straight redish hair. and she was i belive one of the persons who is responsible for me to still be me. training was sometimes hard sometimes eassy. what for me was hard has the exercice. i was having fun well all the fun you can get in rtc in a 900 division witch ment you could eather sing play an instrument or got a relly good score on you asvav. then started to get sick and was sent back home.i was devastated when doctor said i was going to get separated that day i cryed my self to sleep in the medical bed.i felt all my dreams just fall apart. i felt like a faliur to me and everybody who had worked to get me there. but i learned to be strong and looked on it on the bright side.

my stay at rtc (recruit training comand) lasted 42 days. and i brought back with me so much. i grew as person and as a woman. i learned to spend all day and night with 34 girls who some eventully became like sisters to me. i learned how to pack things in really small spaces.how to sing the right way, to shower with a lot of people , to not be shy. and most importantly i learned how to be responsible for my actions and how to work in a team. and i wouldnt have come out there with all of this without the help of my rdcs and my brothers and sisters of 927 and separations. i would say that being part of the U.S NAVY was definetly the most chaleging expirence in my life. (and i loved most of it.)lol

call from…

ive tried so hard  butt nothing works. y is it that just when i find the way to not think of us it all goes away with just hearing your voice.

lights camara,weekend

i got to spend my weekend with a group of plp well not just any plp, i spent my weekend as an intern in the short film “a man made early’ script by angelica hernandez and made posible thanks to scenariosUSA  a great copany from new york full of talented man and women. like ricardo gamboa(who by the way if i had met 14 years ago i would have said “i want to be like ricardo” when they asked me what do i want to be when i grow up in my first audition).  james dereck rolando and meggan my mentors.    and ofcourse how to forget the my cool new familly. i can gladly say that this weekend was life changing because if it wasnt for scenerios and ricardo i would have made the worst istake of my life giving up my actic career. working with them inspired me to go on , it helped me realise that i not the only one that has to deal with what im dealing with right now. im going to miss every single one of them and hope one day see them again. ofcourse im so looking foward on working with the rest of the interns in our own vids. 

RESURECTION

mi computer got sick a couple of days ago and totally got messed up like i got the evil blue screen and was super infected with a whole bunch of trojans and other stuff. yesturday a miracle happened i turned on my computer ready to start fixing it and omg IT WORKED..lol with the help ofcourse of my super awsome bff bubles aka anthony who is un like me a super genius when it has to do with fixing stuff. lol so thank yoiu bubles for helping me and well thank u richard for leting me take over ur computer wile mine was sick.

muerte

la muerte
una experiencia
por la ke todos tendremos ke pasasr
y todos sentimos
diferente
la muerte
causa miedo
causa alegria
tristesa
y algunas veses felizidad
hoy no se ke sentir
no se ke pensar
hoy la muerte se llevo
a un ser
ke aunke
me causo dolor
me lleno de amor.
y en su momento felizidad
asi ke sentir
nostalgia
o me da igual.
hoy NO siento nada
nada x el
nada x mi
nada de nada
hoy mori con el.